As I scooped Micah out of his car seat the other day, I was stunned by the amount of Cheerios that were under his bottom. I giggled to myself and pondered a few of the ways that my life has changed since bringing home our Kaity-Bug 10 1/2 years ago. I dare say that no amount of pre-baby crumbs and dried out fries compares to the vast number of Cheerios and Goldfish crackers my van has seen since having children. I realized the other day that it would be IMPOSSIBLE to make our van look "clean" again. No amount of detailing would remove the fact that four kids frequent those back seats.
Once upon a time I vowed to never be a "mini van Mom." I wanted to always have an SUV or sedan to get me from A to B. Well, let me tell you that not only did I change my tune but now I love that van. SSHHH. Don't let the 20 something me hear me say that. :)
No, since we welcomed Chubby Cheeks and Cheerios into our lives and hearts I would say that nothing has been the same as it was before. Thank God for that.
Last night some dear friends told us the great news of expecting their first child. I am excited beyond belief at how they will discover a whole side of themselves they never knew. Parenting changes you. It makes you into an entirely new creature. It rocks your world.
I don't say that in the scary sense. I know that I am a much better person now than I was pre-Kaity. My heart actually feels different and my focus and priorities are altogether something else. I had always read in the Bible that "children are a blessing from the Lord." And now I get to live that out every day as I seek to serve, grow, teach and love these four amazing little people I have been given. Discovering each day that it's not just about all the wonderful things kids bring into your life. But it's also about the way they shape you and change you and mature you and grow you.
I love the way God is using my children and parenting together with my Hubs to refine me. What a gift to be blessed with something so wonderful, magical and beautiful as an instrument of growth and change for me. God certainly allows some not-so-lovely things to grow and change us too. But WOW - am I ever grateful that He chose to grow me in this way too.
So not for many many more years will I have a Cheerio free van and no chubby cheeks to smooch and pinch. Thank you, Lord. I relish this time so much more when I think of it as a gigantic present He sent just for me.